Things haven't been so easy, lately. Robb has been on edge, and I've been feeling sort of lost. While we've been remarkably even-tempered in the two years since Robb became paralyzed, it was sort of inevitable that there would be a bad patch.
We're trying not not take our frustrations on each other. And, I really need to get some kind of emotional jump start. I'm feeling faded and devoid of energy, far too much of the time. Robb's just angry lately, at things that don't matter. Angry with the cat for not taking her medications, or being too unwell to eat her food. He's probably angry at me for being such a useless slacker.
I know that this is just a bad phase. It is hard to see the person you love more than anyone on earth going through such challenging times. And it is hard to watch myself (in a weird looking in-from-the-outside way, unable to take action) being such an emotional zombie.
I guess that as long as we don't find ourselves living on the sidewalk, consuming goodness-knows-what out of a paper bag, we have a lot to be thankful for.
For those of you not in California, these are California Ground Squirrels, a wide-spread burrowing species. They are very common alongside the shoreline, where we often cycle. These squirrels develop immunity to the venom of rattlesnakes, and mother squirrels have been observed chewing on shed snake skins and licking their babies, in order to disguise the little ones' squirrely-scent.
And dang! They're sweet! Who can be upset with life when looking at these cutie-pies?