the buzz
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I'm going to say this bluntly: The last three years have really sucked. First, and worst was Robb's breaking his back. I got hepatitis, and instead of getting better in two or three weeks, I spent four months feeling totally devoid of energy, and like I was going to throw up at any moment. Two people in my immediate family died, after long illnesses. Two of my cats died. I've felt trapped and unsupported in my job, and because of the economy, and Robb's situation, I couldn't imagine moving on from a job that I know I should love. Robb was involved with a hugely important lawsuit that dragged on and on. I turned in on myself, and lost a lot of friends, which made me horribly lonely.
We've been stressed out, to say the least.
I've tried to face all of this with humor and perseverance. But there's only so much humor a girl can muster.
And in the last few months, all of the pressures came crashing down on me. I felt completely overwhelmed and trapped.
This has to stop.
I'm determined to find a way of making a fresh start. A new season is beginning at work. I have a new boss. The lawsuit (for better or worse) has been settled.
It is time for a new beginning.
I'm going to say this bluntly: The last three years have really sucked. First, and worst was Robb's breaking his back. I got hepatitis, and instead of getting better in two or three weeks, I spent four months feeling totally devoid of energy, and like I was going to throw up at any moment. Two people in my immediate family died, after long illnesses. Two of my cats died. I've felt trapped and unsupported in my job, and because of the economy, and Robb's situation, I couldn't imagine moving on from a job that I know I should love. Robb was involved with a hugely important lawsuit that dragged on and on. I turned in on myself, and lost a lot of friends, which made me horribly lonely.
We've been stressed out, to say the least.
I've tried to face all of this with humor and perseverance. But there's only so much humor a girl can muster.
And in the last few months, all of the pressures came crashing down on me. I felt completely overwhelmed and trapped.
This has to stop.
I'm determined to find a way of making a fresh start. A new season is beginning at work. I have a new boss. The lawsuit (for better or worse) has been settled.
It is time for a new beginning.
Comments
Even though there's a whole continent in between us, you haven't lost me. I've been in a similar state of mind...stuck in a job I hate, struggling with infertility and miscarriage, family issues at a new low. Then things began to turn. Now I'm in a job I love and my little boy is the joy of my life.
Huzzah for new beginnings! I'm here whenever you need me.
Here's to Spring and renewal!
best wishes,
Yosemite MJD
Lisa, I can't begin to tell you how much the drugs are helping me. Not everyone's cup of tea, I know. When I was feeling the worst, I realized that I needed to set aside all the advise from my well-meaning friends and do what felt right to me. It's hard to figure out what you need for you. You'll make it work, I'm sure of it, that's what surviving is all about. And you are one strong amazing woman.
Frank and Susie
Peace, Love, and Paint,
-Julie
I read your blog, because you put forth the bad and the good, you DO have a good sense of humor, and you DO have incredible talent that you share via photos and wit.
We all wonder if we're leaning to hard on our friends/family, and we're all really bad at asking for help when we need it.
So keep doing what you're doing. And when you need to, lean harder and ask for more! As my counselor said, "You're doing great, considering...", which made me feel good then horrible, because if this is good, what's bad? Then in the words of my doula, "This too shall pass."
And it does pass...
I know everyone else is saying this too (and usually saying it much better than I), but you ARE an amazing person. I have followed your blog since the beginning, and have been honored to be a part of your world "in real life" from time to time as well. You are an inspiration, not just with your strength but with your willingness to share your weaknesses as well. And through it all, you make me LAUGH. You are truly witty, and wacky, and off-beat, and to ME, those traits are golden. I know very well how often there is pain behind humor, and that you share BOTH sides makes you truly remarkable. So kudos to you, and to Robb also - his strength and courage and indomitable spirit are truly mind-boggling as well.
Your friend, here if you need me,
-wassamatta_u
You both have so many fans and they will always be there for you, good times and bad.
~~Doublesaj & Old Blue~~
Being a new letterboxer(January)I haven't had the pleasure of meeting you yet at an event. I do however, feel as if I've known you. I always read your posts, and love the pictures. I am sending you and Robb prayers and well wishes and am looking forward to meeting the two of you at a future event.
...Passionquester
Being a new letterboxer(January)I haven't had the pleasure of meeting you yet at an event. I do however, feel as if I've known you. I always read your posts, and love the pictures. I am sending you and Robb prayers and well wishes and am looking forward to meeting the two of you at a future event.
...Passionquester
- John
Buggylou
And on a lighter note, were I not currently entrenched in the job of being a full-time Mom, I'd love to have your job. I still wish I could figure out what kind of degree you need to become a scenic artist (czar? goddess? master?) like you.
-Jen of MLM
Kara
Oh, and I vote for a touch of bright red nail polish to dot the top of the snails. If they come back I'd toss them in a bag and have Robb give them a new home when he takes a cycle trip. If they come back you've got a great story to do on homing snails :-)