why?
I started this blog as a self-protecting way to get a bit more sleep. When Robb was first injured, and in the hospital, I couldn't face the early-morning phone calls asking how he was. I couldn't bear telling the same confusing and terrifying story over and over again. I was stretched terribly thin, and needed to conserve my energies.
Slowly, as Robb got back on his feet -- both literally and metaphorically -- the blog's purpose shifted, and it started documenting his little triumphs, as well as our set-backs. But since the recovery from a spinal cord injury progresses at the glacial pace, I eventually ran out of new things to say. I started writing about our outings, and my return to work.
But there have been a lot of things that don't get said, except by omission. Some friends (Gina Sue, I'm talking about you) are sensitive enough to read the what we choose to speak about, as well as our silences.
No, I haven't written much about the intense fragility of the human body. Or about our daily fears that Robb's condition may not continue to improve. In the face of all the suffering in this world, it seems selfish and self absorbed to do such a thing.
Sometimes it seems so silly to be writing at all. Or posting pictures of birds, or documenting our daily activities. I'm not clear on why I'm still writing this.
My silly little blog-writing notwithstanding, I believe that some of the most powerful things we do in life are the things that we do without fully understanding our motives. Sometimes, we act because we must. Sometimes, we're just writing messages, sticking them in bottles, and tossing them into the sea.
Who knows why we write, or what the person who stumbles on our messages may think?
Slowly, as Robb got back on his feet -- both literally and metaphorically -- the blog's purpose shifted, and it started documenting his little triumphs, as well as our set-backs. But since the recovery from a spinal cord injury progresses at the glacial pace, I eventually ran out of new things to say. I started writing about our outings, and my return to work.
But there have been a lot of things that don't get said, except by omission. Some friends (Gina Sue, I'm talking about you) are sensitive enough to read the what we choose to speak about, as well as our silences.
No, I haven't written much about the intense fragility of the human body. Or about our daily fears that Robb's condition may not continue to improve. In the face of all the suffering in this world, it seems selfish and self absorbed to do such a thing.
Sometimes it seems so silly to be writing at all. Or posting pictures of birds, or documenting our daily activities. I'm not clear on why I'm still writing this.
My silly little blog-writing notwithstanding, I believe that some of the most powerful things we do in life are the things that we do without fully understanding our motives. Sometimes, we act because we must. Sometimes, we're just writing messages, sticking them in bottles, and tossing them into the sea.
Who knows why we write, or what the person who stumbles on our messages may think?
Comments
You know, we have never met...why you probably have never even heard of me. But I look forward to hearing about what you two are up to and how Rob and you are doing. I love your photos (the cute fuzzy spider is my desktop background)and I am pulling for you two. Why you write is not for me to guess but that you write allows for positive energy to pass between us and I think that is important.
KI
Spiralseekers
As you said... spinal cord injuries progress at a glacial pace... and I don't think you and Robb were ever moving at less than the speed of lightning before the accident. This must be weighing heavily and this is a good outlet...and, yes... your own support group! Reading entries from people you have never met is awesome... people are attracted to you and are cheering for you both.
Please keep on blogging... we are loving it!
Bandaid
I have to say I feel the distance is far less between us with you writing as you do. You guys and this blog are a part of my daily routine, one I look forward to.
You're feeling the natural- I've got the show up and running let down after opening night...don't worry a whole new set of challenges will come crashing through that scene shop door any second ;-)
Ziska
Zinni
Also, just so you know...every time I pull out my little pocket knife..the "McGuyver Tool" flashes through my minds eye! And the boys all want that same knife for Christmas!
Chin up!
Sweet n Sassy
--Laughing Gravy (Leah from Centralia)
thinking of you guys today because the super frisky squirrels out my front door are driving my cat CRAZY.
leslie
and hey, someday this will make a great book. or you can use blurb.com to slurp up the blog contents into a book - I've made books with them, and they're GORGEOUS. all your photos would really shine on paper!
Wendy from Oregon
"Smiley"
Don't worry if you don't have earthshattering news to post, nothing happens instantly anyway (unless its bad luck, right?) and all things take time. If you do need some other-type of information to post, you can always tell us about whatever unusual things come your way, which in the art world, and in California especially, happens about every 2 seconds.
You are coming up on the anniversary of the accident soon enough, and that in itself is enough to make thoughts turn inward and re-inhabit how you two were during the tramatic event. You have both come a long way indeed, and even with the twitch of Robb's small toe, I consider it "the twitch that rocks the world", and portends great good luck.
You already have great success by Robb in not being a bed-ridden vegetable for the rest of his, and your life. Consider your good fortune on the bad days, because it could always get far worse. Just a bit of Catholic guilt thrown in there for flavor! I don't know how I live without it to get me through the hard days, nothing like the threat of "endless suffering" to make the good days seem great, and delicously rebelous. Most people placed in your situation would EXPECT you two to be miserable. And you would be right to feel that way at times. And then people would avoid you. Not helpful.
And you are NOT alone, even though we are not there with you physically, we think about you guys every day and have great hope. Ponder THAT. Spiritually these good vibes sent your way have to be doing something. Maybe I'll color mine a specific hue, so if you see some toxic red clouds over your town, you will know its just us!
Really, the blog does help you, and we can tell by your tone and choice of words how the day has been going. I consider the blog your way of healing as well, and just as helpful as a doctor's visit.
Annalisa
that said you when need time for yourself,by all means, take it!!!
But just so it doesn't become a 'chore' you might want to try cutting down to twice a week or even once. I think we'll all live.
~~Doublesaj~~